A lot has happened to me within the last few months that has kept me away from my blogging endeavors. The number one being that exactly two months ago today, my Mom passed. She had been suffering from pancreatic cancer for the past few months. She fought a good fight, but the Lord came and called her home. It has been (and will forever be) tough for my Dad, family and myself. I really don't understand how I'm making it and living everyday but I am.
I never thought I would be the victim of losing my mother so soon, and recently, it seems as if God is calling all the great Mothers home. I constantly ask Him "Why?" when she had so much more life to live? I am in search of that answer every day. It is a constant struggle to wake up and realize my Mom isn't on this Earth anymore, but it is so comforting to know that she is not in pain and suffering the way she was when she was here. Although I wish I could hold her, hug her, smell her and be with her physical self, I know she is with me every second of every day now. She is guiding me and leading me in the right directions along with our God.
I've realized that if I don't do anything else in my life, I will live for my mother. I will live out our dreams of being in the apparel industry. She was the original fashionista in our family and now I will live out her legacy. We shared so much together, it's as if we are one. She even gave me her name! I must go on now to make her and my Dad (and family) beyond proud. It is a trying and painful battle, but
I will win.
By the Grace of my God,
I WILL WIN
I love you forever my beautiful Angel :-)
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